Can’t Stop, Won’t Stop

Overthinking

You ever had a dream or idea that was so big and you were so passionate about it that it’s all that you thought about? Ever spent days on end thinking of how you’ll accomplish this dream or idea? Then, have you ever got to the point where you started to doubt yourself? You start to think of all the things that could possibly go wrong before it even gets started until you find yourself not doing anything at all. That’s what I call thinking yourself out of something or overthinking. Plenty of people talk themselves and others out doing things, but there’s also the act of thinking yourself out of it. I’ve done this with my writing, with big decisions in my personal life, basically, anything that requires that requires change. I guess you can say I’m addicted to overthinking. I’ve spent too much time planning and not enough time doing, because of what I thought would go wrong and I know plenty of people who struggle with this. I used to try, and sometimes still do predict any little thing that could hinder me from my goals so that I can avoid the element of surprise. Unfortunately, there’s no way to predict the future or the outcome of any situation. The only thing that we end up doing is letting the fear of the unknown control our behavior, and ultimately, our lives. In return, we end up not living at all.

I’ve had more than a few situations where God showed me who was really in control, and you guessed it, it wasn’t me. There was a situation that I was dealing with at work, and I would spend so much time venting to my fiance’. Shout out to him for listening, because if I was him, I would have probably walked away from the annoying conversation a while ago. Anyway, I used to think of all of the possible solutions and scenarios. “If I say or do this, then this will happen,” I would tell myself. Now, how was I suppose to know what would happen? And I promise you, I’m like dead serious when I tell myself that I know for sure how a scenario is going to play out. To make a long story short, (and with very little details, because I still work there and sometimes they creep on my blogs. YES, I KNOW YOU’RE READING IT RIGHT NOW. WHAT’S UP!), once I took a step back and let God handle it, the situation worked out in my favor. Once I said, “I’m not in control, but God is and he will never leave me nor forsake me, he took care of it. This not only happened in my professional life but also while writing my blog. I remember before I started writing, I used to think, “Well what if no one reads it? What if no one likes it?” I really convinced myself that I probably would only have one reader, and that would be my grandma. I thought so much about it, that I was afraid to even start. Then, I put it off for like a year. Until one day, I said eff it. I’m not writing this for attention, but I’m writing because this is something that I’m passionate about. I went through different obstacles after I began writing that would cause me to doubt myself, but I realized that no one can stop you, but you. All the overthinking, all of the doubt and fear, that’s coming from me and no one else. Is it better to be a writer that no one likes or a writer that no one’s heard of? I’ll take the first one! We can talk all day about our haters and how no one will stop us, but we really don’t need to stop ourselves. Once you realize that God is for you and no one can be against, including yourself, then, and only then, will you truly be unstoppable. So let’s stop thinking and DO!

 

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Asia Vallier

Born in Lafayette, Louisiana. Raised in Houston, Texas. Poetry, music, theater, and movies have always intrigued me, and all things artistic live at the core of who I am. I've always kept a composition notebook at my side at all times whether that be for journaling, writing music or writing my ideas. At some point, I realized that what I was searching for to express myself had been there all along in my writing. I hope to inspire and invoke thought into each and every one of my readers. Blessings!

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